054 As hard as Trusting can be, living with constant fears is harder.  

It's about time I wrote again, its been a while.

You know what the most frequent command in the bible is?  I didn't realize this till not too long ago....

It is ..Don't be afraid!   I have never thought of myself as a fearful person.  I am not scared of much but I guess thats in terms of the BIG things like death..and I've always thought well if I'm not scared of Death Im probobly not a very Fearful of much. Cause isn't that the ultimate?  

but, I am guilty of worry..I worry a lot! and worrying is just as bad as being afraid.  Over the past few weeks many things have come up that have caused me to worry and think WHY GOD? ..including the 2 deaths of family members.  This is why I was so comforted to have a whole lesson focused on Death and Bravery when I got to my study of Esther.  This verse is so reassuring especially after someone has died. 

 Philippians 1:6  And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.           So that means it is not over when we leave earth ..i believe God has a plan for our life reguardless of where are with him be that on earth or heaven.

So back to my worrying.. why worry when that is the number one command in the bible.. DO NOT BE AFRAID.. whats the worst thats going to happen?!!!   I mean even if my ultimate worst worry or fear happens.. I still have God.  He has no intention of giving up on me.. only I am the one who can make the decision to give up.  and this goes for everyone.  God has NO intention on leaving you..on giving up on you, so why be afraid?  IF the worst happens.. you still have God and he will help raise you up.   1 john 4:18  Perfect Love casts out Fear. 

The word COURAGE comes from the latin word meaning HEART.   All seem to go hand in hand.. so I believe COURAGE is not denying reality but denying its authority over your life.   We all have to deal with things we don't like....and MAN don't even get me started today...  I could go into a whole bunch of things that I am not liking right about now.  but I think that the key is to stand up to those fears.. those things you don't like and not let them overcome you.  

Ill put this in other terms.. so maybe you know of the movie BRAVEHEART.  This is one Royce recently told me he finished watching so its been on my mind.  I have not seen this movie myself in quite a while...but I do know that the character Malcolm Wallace says, "Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it." 

Wouldn't it be wonderful to be free of the things that hold us back at times.. the fears we have from moving forward or making a tough decision.  If we were fearless..it would be so freeing. 

I am praying that God can give me the courage to move forward.. and not be afraid of what is going to happen in the next few monthes, because right now I am hurting....but I know that God will be with me through it all.   I hope that some of you can understand and maybe get insight from somthing I said.

A great song that goes with what I've written about is Hands by Jewel.  ( I heard this song on the radio last night on my drive home, and tears came to my eyes because It's exactly how I felt at that monent...I knew I had to share it. )

If I could tell the world just one thing It would be that we're all OK And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful And useless in times like these I won't be made useless I won't be idle with despair I will gather myself around my faith For light does the darkness most fear My hands are small, I know But they're not yours, they are my own

Love ~LO